I cannot say I have ever experienced anything as exotic and fierce as this display of human emotion through bodily noises. This exercise was intense, intensely intense for me if that makes sense. In all honesty I have been on an everlasting rollercoaster of emotions and to hear the production of collective emotional noise surrounding me, not to mention in the dark, was actually quite frightening to me. The way I have been feeling lately- up, down, really down- was no match to the level of emotional burden bestowed upon me. The black space and continuous noises were inescapable. I really didn’t know how to react. I was too scared to react. Eventually I found myself humming a continuous hum, something I concentrated on to escape all the noises that made me so uncomfortable. This was probably one of the first times I have ever tried meditating.
What I realize now is that this experience was something far greater than just standing around in a circle, eyes closed, using the body to create noise. Something happened that is difficult for me to put into words. My emotions were taken from me, I was silenced into nothing, and they came back to attack me.
No comment - this was an in class exercise.
ReplyDeleteEach processes as each will. Not a work, not a work in progress, simply
experimentation with the body as medium of art making. Take it or leave it.
Life goes on.